I’m still here, just drowning…

…in life. There are many days that I wish for more hours in the day, if only to complete more of the things on my to-do list. There are other days that I wish there were less hours in the day, simply because all I want to do is go back to sleep. That’s super…

Every day is judgment day

I was talking to my therapist about my anxiety (which was going pretty well until this week – more about that in another post). I was questioning the logic of anxiety, a ridiculous train of thought considering anxiety has no logic. When talking about triggers, I explained that social events are frequently a trigger; it…

Depression, Anxiety, and Why We Need To Keep Talking About It All

Truth time: I have anxiety and depression. The anxiety has been a constant for awhile, but the depression is a new phase in my personal experience with mental illness. I have debated on how or if I wanted to say anything, to anyone, but I’m learning from therapy and experience that keeping it all inside…

Why I continue to write

There are so many days where I am up and moving. ALL DAY LONG. I wake up early, get everyone out the door and to school/daycare/work, make long commutes back and forth to work, run kids to practice and tutoring, volunteer, attend meetings, keep a clean decent house, cook meals, and crash in to bed…only…

The day I became the “old spouse”

I was sitting at a spouse dinner the other night, getting to know a brand new wife to our area and to our squadron. She had a ton of questions, all of which I felt I could accurately answer. She asked about deployments, TDYs, amenities and services around the base, etc…and I could answer her….

Small victories

For a person who writes for two blogs, one would assume that I do not mind sharing a lot about my life. One would be wrong. I find it easy and enjoyable to share some things – the good moments, the funny anecdotes, , the common frustrations – but not everything in a life is…

Turning a false alarm into a learning opportunity

  So in case you live under a rock or on a land with no technology (is there such a place anymore?), we had a false alarm of an incoming ballistic missile here in Hawaii. I say false alarm now, but it was not clear that this was not a real threat until 38 minutes…

2 more days!

The husband arrives home in 2 days.  2 DAYS!  One would think that after all the years of deployments and of the days/months/years apart, it would not be as exciting when he is coming home again.  But it always is.  This year apart has been hard, just as challenging if not more so than the…

Why I love my work commute

I started work as the office manager (or Operations Assistant, in Army terms) at a vet clinic here just a few months ago.  I was doing the same job in Germany and loved it; I interviewed for this position months ago but had to wait awhile to take the job.  It has been so great…

Revisiting those resolutions

Now that the year is 3/4 over – which seems impossible but here we are – I thought about the resolutions I made and posted here in January.  As I have stated before, I generally hate resolutions.  I feel like it sets a person up to fail because we strive for drastic changes with unrealistic…

F-word Fridays: Finding oneself

I am a 32 year old wife and mother.  I know my strengths and my weaknesses, my likes and dislikes, my dreams and my nightmares.  Yet every year that passes, I find that I’m still changing and evolving, and I do not just mean physically.  I am still finding myself or learning who I am,…