I’m still here, just drowning…

…in life. There are many days that I wish for more hours in the day, if only to complete more of the things on my to-do list. There are other days that I wish there were less hours in the day, simply because all I want to do is go back to sleep. That’s super…

Every day is judgment day

I was talking to my therapist about my anxiety (which was going pretty well until this week – more about that in another post). I was questioning the logic of anxiety, a ridiculous train of thought considering anxiety has no logic. When talking about triggers, I explained that social events are frequently a trigger; it…

Depression, Anxiety, and Why We Need To Keep Talking About It All

Truth time: I have anxiety and depression. The anxiety has been a constant for awhile, but the depression is a new phase in my personal experience with mental illness. I have debated on how or if I wanted to say anything, to anyone, but I’m learning from therapy and experience that keeping it all inside…

Why I continue to write

There are so many days where I am up and moving. ALL DAY LONG. I wake up early, get everyone out the door and to school/daycare/work, make long commutes back and forth to work, run kids to practice and tutoring, volunteer, attend meetings, keep a clean decent house, cook meals, and crash in to bed…only…

The day I became the “old spouse”

I was sitting at a spouse dinner the other night, getting to know a brand new wife to our area and to our squadron. She had a ton of questions, all of which I felt I could accurately answer. She asked about deployments, TDYs, amenities and services around the base, etc…and I could answer her….

Small victories

For a person who writes for two blogs, one would assume that I do not mind sharing a lot about my life. One would be wrong. I find it easy and enjoyable to share some things – the good moments, the funny anecdotes, , the common frustrations – but not everything in a life is…

Turning a false alarm into a learning opportunity

  So in case you live under a rock or on a land with no technology (is there such a place anymore?), we had a false alarm of an incoming ballistic missile here in Hawaii. I say false alarm now, but it was not clear that this was not a real threat until 38 minutes…

From 2 to 14 – parenting at all the ages

It’s been a hot minute since I have written. Why, do you ask? Because I have 4 kids, a husband, a job, a volunteer position, and a lot of books to read. I generally do not like to complain about how exhausting life can be (except to my husband), but lately the parenting has been…

#hikinginhawaii

I feel like the only pictures I post on Instagram now are of cute pets from work and hiking in Hawaii.  For a self-proclaimed “indoor girl,” I’ve really embraced the hiking opportunities here.  This tiny island can seem just that – tiny – so hiking is a cheap way to explore, to kill some time,…